I created this blog when my sweet little girl, Kristen, was diagnosed with cancer, for the third time. After fighting for almost 3 years Kristen was called home to that same God who gave her life. I've contemplated on many occasions rather I should quit this blog or not. Each time I am inspired that I should not. One of my favorite quotes comes from Neal A. Maxwell- "Those who "plow in hope" not only understand the law of the harvest but they also understand what growing seasons are all about. True, those with genuine hope may see their proximate circumstances shaken like a kaleidoscope at times, yet with the "Eye of faith" they still see divine design." Kristen blessed lives and continues to do so. Her light continues to shine. As for me, I continue to "plow in hope" knowing well that Kristen is mine for eternity. Families can be together forever! This I know. Our family continues to live and to love and this is our story...

Sunday, May 17, 2015

mom's day

I wasn't looking forward to Mother's Day. 
My first without my mom. 
Several times as I was shopping for gifts I thought, 
"Oh my mom would love this."
Instead of buying a gift for my mom I bought gifts for
 my daughters, my sisters and my mothers friend.
 When we dressed my mom for her burial we purchased
some precious white slippers with embroidery and beads for her.
I decided it would be special to buy a pair of these same slippers for the girls.
 They really loved them!



Rich and I went to the cemetery early in the morning to leave some
flowers for my mom. It was a beautiful peaceful morning.
My heart felt peaceful. As I got back into the car a song was playing.

The song was "Oh My Father."
"When I leave this frail existence, when I lay this mortal by,
Father, Mother may I meet you in your royal courts on high?
Then, at length, when I've completed, All you sent me forth to do,
With your mutual approbation, Let me come and dwell with you."

My heart was full with joy and happiness for my mother.



I'd like to offer a little advice to those who happen to know someone whose
mother recently passed away and it happens to be Mother's Day.
First off, I think of and miss my mom every single day.
I missed her and thought of her just as much today and I did on Mother's Day.
Second, It would be better to say something than to ignore and say nothing.
If you don't know what to say then how about say,
"I've been thinking about you today."
A HUG and "Happy Mother's Day!" would be nice. 
And I'm not a hugging person!
movin on...

My daughter had pneumonia on Mother's day.
She has 5 children including a busy 10 month old cute little boy.
After leaving the cemetery I went to her home to see what I could do to help.
I thought I could make breakfast, but Brooke beat me to it.



Later I met my brother at the cemetery. 
Again we found it peaceful. This time I was greeted by ducks,
geese and even some gosling. 
My mom loved birds. 




My mother's roses are in full bloom.
Now I just  have to figure out how to get a start of that bush for my house.

My niece told her 4 year old son to grab her a coke out of the cooler at the store.
He came back with this...




Sunday, May 3, 2015

birthday girl

It's hard to believe that another birthday has passed without our girl.
She loved her birthday so much. 
We continue to celebrate her birthday.
We left 29 windmills at her grave as she would have been 29.
We made treat bags and cupcakes.
The kids each sent her a balloon.
Even though Kristen is not here with us now,
the days are always brighter because she was once here.
Our lives are better because of her.
Happy Birthday to our Sweet Angel






Cody played "Happy Birthday" on his guitar.
It was fabulous!