I created this blog when my sweet little girl, Kristen, was diagnosed with cancer, for the third time. After fighting for almost 3 years Kristen was called home to that same God who gave her life. I've contemplated on many occasions rather I should quit this blog or not. Each time I am inspired that I should not. One of my favorite quotes comes from Neal A. Maxwell- "Those who "plow in hope" not only understand the law of the harvest but they also understand what growing seasons are all about. True, those with genuine hope may see their proximate circumstances shaken like a kaleidoscope at times, yet with the "Eye of faith" they still see divine design." Kristen blessed lives and continues to do so. Her light continues to shine. As for me, I continue to "plow in hope" knowing well that Kristen is mine for eternity. Families can be together forever! This I know. Our family continues to live and to love and this is our story...

Friday, January 30, 2015

when I grow up...

...I want to be my mom.

Last September my mother had a stroke.
She has been dizzy every since.
Two weeks before Christmas she moved in with me.
I loved having her in my home.
I have loved sitting in her room late in the evening watching
"The Golden Girls" with her.

Last week she had another stroke.
She was making progress until Wednesday.
We repeated an MRI and she has had 3 more strokes since last week.
This afternoon she will have a test and possibly a procedure.
It is risky but it is all we've got. 
A lot could happen in the next few hours.

Yesterday I told my mom that she is the most perfect person I know,
and I meant it.

She is sweet.
She is kind.
She is lovely.
She loves my dad completely.
She loves her children more than anything.
Her grandchildren are her greatest treasure.
She loves and knows them all.
She is giving.
She is caring.
Did I mention that she is caring.
She is funny.
She loves to laugh.
She is soft spoken.
She is simple.
She is everything that is good in the world.


For the past 5 years since my father passed away she has carried a broken heart.
Over the past few days she has let us know that both my dad and Kristen are near.
The veil between this life and the next have been somewhat parted for her.
I believe she is kinda stuck between two worlds.
I do know that although we are making decisions on her behalf
we are not in charge. I know that she is one of Heavenly Fathers
choice daughters and He loves her completely. 


All that I am or ever hope to be, I owe to my angel Mother.
~Abraham Lincoln

I'm right there with you Mr. Lincoln.

Thursday, January 29, 2015

hang on

A lot has been going on these past few weeks.
I've been busy with life.
I hope to go back and post pictures from this past holiday season.
This past week has been one of the most difficult I have had in like forever.
I am so thankful for my husband and my children who have gathered 
and supported me at this time.
Hopefully better days are ahead.