I created this blog when my sweet little girl, Kristen, was diagnosed with cancer, for the third time. After fighting for almost 3 years Kristen was called home to that same God who gave her life. One of my favorite quotes comes from Neal A. Maxwell- "Those who "plow in hope" not only understand the law of the harvest but they also understand what growing seasons are all about. True, those with genuine hope may see their proximate circumstances shaken like a kaleidoscope at times, yet with the "Eye of faith" they still see divine design." Kristen blessed lives and continues to do so. Her light continues to shine. As for me, I continue to "plow in hope" knowing well that Kristen is mine for eternity. Families can be together forever!

Tuesday, March 31, 2015

the wedding in florida

This past week we traveled to Florida to celebrated the marriage of
Ryan and Morgan.

It was a bit different from the actual marriage in Utah.
In Utah we had the only snow storm of the entire year on March 3rd.
In Florida it had rained in the morning but by evening it was beautiful.

Both Utah and Florida were magical.

I'm still waiting for pictures from the Utah reception.
For now I will post pictures from the open house in Florida.

The open house was held in the
 Gardner's Cottage at Maclay Gardens.
It's a beautiful place. 

Everything was perfect.

Monday, March 23, 2015


You've got to watch this.
That recipient of that first pillowcase was Kristen!
We love Sarah and Joyce.

Thursday, March 19, 2015

random acts of kindness

Celebrate World Down Syndrome Day this March 21 
with Random Acts of Kindness! 
Help us celebrate and honor all those with Down syndrome. 

I started my random acts earlier in the week. 
 I left cookies in the break room at work.
I'm going to get my grandchildren involved on Saturday.
We'll add pictures as we go.

 It is my wish to let the world know
that having a child born with
Down syndrome is truly a blessing.
Kristen brought joy and love to the world.

I found something my dad wrote in his notebook 
shortly after Kristen was born. I'm not sure who the author is, 
but it must have had great meaning to my dad as he
penned it in his little notebook.
This is what is says,

"You make an excellent point that I have taken to heart. 
Saying one "suffers" from Down syndrome 
is a misplaced judgment. 
I believe that when our maker calls us home, 
he'll welcome all his special children first.
The rest of us will wait with bated breath,
praying for entrance.
And when you look at it from this point of view,
which of us has the handicap?"

We'll continue to celebrate her life, her beauty and her love.
We'll continue to support her friends all over the world who
are trying to feel included and loved, and especially
those who just want and need to be born.
We love and miss our angel girl.
Our Princess
(the one who could light up a room.)

Saturday, March 14, 2015

be kind

I took 8 off my 10 grandchildren to the new 
Cinderella movie this morning. 
Loved it

I can imagine that Kristen would have also loved it.
I forgot to get a picture of the kiddies so
 I'll share a really good quote 
from the movie instead.

Look who came to visit for a few days
My very own little princess

Friday, March 13, 2015



  1. 1. toward the front; in the direction that one is facing or traveling.
          2. onward so as to make progress; toward a successful conclusion

Forward; the direction I wish to go.
 The past several weeks have been tough. 
Going forward has been hard.
Some days I just want to stay right where I am.
I have learned that moving forward is much better than standing still
or going backward.
One of the many things I learned when Kristen passed away is that
she would not want her death to diminish my life. 
She wants me to go forward and find joy in this life.
I'm sure my mom feels the same way. 
My mom was such a part of my life. 
She was my best friend.
She was my daughters best friend. 
She was ALWAYS there for each of us
and for everyone else in her life.
The past 5 years have been difficult.
3 of my most favorite people are gone from this life.
There has been many days when I have felt like
 maybe I'm not strong enough,
I can't do this.
It is then that I come to realize that 
Kristen, my dad and my mother  are still very close.
They are my greatest cheerleaders.
They are still helping me,
probably more than they ever have. 
So onward I go.

In the morning I will be delivering 5 Build-a-Bears to
children who are fighting cancer.

My son got married last week to a very sweet girl.
She is from Florida and she calls me "Miss Polly."
How cool is that?

Grandchild number 11 will be arriving in October!

Spring is coming!
Blossoms will soon be popping and gardens will be planted.

2 new bunnies arrived at our our house.

"The refiners fire is real. Qualities of character and righteousness that are forged in the furnace of affliction perfect and purify us and prepare us to meet God."
~Quentin L. Cook 

I must have a lot of perfecting and purifying to do as I continue to find myself thrown in the fire. The refiners fire is not a comfortable place to be. My only hope is that after the repeated hammering and the intense heat that I might become the person I was meant to be.

My mother had several requests concerning her funeral.
1. A closed casket (her mother also requested a closed casket)
2. A graveside service
3. Bagpipes to be played at her graveside
4. Lots of flowers.
She got all of her wishes.