I created this blog when my sweet little girl, Kristen, was diagnosed with cancer, for the third time. After fighting for almost 3 years Kristen was called home to that same God who gave her life. I've contemplated on many occasions rather I should quit this blog or not. Each time I am inspired that I should not. One of my favorite quotes comes from Neal A. Maxwell- "Those who "plow in hope" not only understand the law of the harvest but they also understand what growing seasons are all about. True, those with genuine hope may see their proximate circumstances shaken like a kaleidoscope at times, yet with the "Eye of faith" they still see divine design." Kristen blessed lives and continues to do so. Her light continues to shine. As for me, I continue to "plow in hope" knowing well that Kristen is mine for eternity. Families can be together forever! This I know. Our family continues to live and to love and this is our story...

Sunday, July 20, 2014

4 years

Dear Kristen,
It has been 4 years since we last held you in our arms.
Dad and I went to the cemetery first thing this morning.
It was a lovely summer morning just like the one 4 years ago.
Although it has been 4 years, our family continues to feel
your influence every single day.
The hole in my heart is still ever present.
However, I have the knowledge that someday you will again
fill that empty space in my heart.
We love and miss you more than we could ever say.
You are our sunshine forever.

One balloon for each year you have been gone.






As summer continues we wish you were here with us
sitting in the swing enjoying popsicles.
Today we will sit in the swing a little longer and enjoy a popsicle for you.

We choose hope over despair.

"Because of Him, even our Savior, Jesus Christ, those feelings of sorrow,
 loneliness, and despair will one day be swallowed up in a fullness of joy.
I testify that on that bright, glorious morning of the First Resurrection, your loved ones and mine will come forth from the grave as promised by the Lord Himself and we will have a fullness of joy. Because He lives, they and we shall live also."
~Elder Bowen


We returned to the cemetery this evening to let this balloon go.
The sky was beautiful.
I love you bigger

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

baby boy

Baby boy arrived safely this afternoon.
Both mom and baby are doing awesome.
Baby's mom decided to try it natural this time.
She did amazing and almost didn't even need a doctor.
We are thrilled with the new arrival.









Sunday, July 13, 2014

wedding fun

The girls and I catered a wedding for 350 people this weekend.
It is always a lot of fun to hang out and work together.
We like to stick to simple delicious food.
We served watermelon and grapes, spinach salad, 
ham and turkey croissants and of course cookies.
Richard even helped, he was in charge of the lemonade and ice water.
We couldn't have done it without him.
It was a fun summer evening that will be remembered 
for a very long time.







the flower girls



One of the highlights was Grandma D's red car.
All of the kids wanted their picture taken by it.





What matters most is what lasts the longest
and our families are for eternity.
~M. Russell Ballard

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

birthday and baby blessing

I think of and miss my dad daily. 
He's kind of like my own personal north star.
He was constant in his thoughts and actions.
When he was alive I would always look to him and try to follow
the path he had outlined. I respected him and his opinions.
There are many days that I wish I could ask him for his opinion.
Many many times I just sit for a minute and ask myself,
"What would my dad want me to do?"
I continue to try to live my life in a way that would
 make my dad proud.
So I guess, even in death, he continues to be my north star,
my guiding light. 
Happy Birthday Dad!
p.s. you would LOVE all of these precious 
great grandchildren that keep coming.
So far there are 12 with 3 more on the way!
We continue to tell them about you and the
wonderful life you lived and the example that you were
and continue to be.



This baby boy was blessed at church this passed Sunday.
He is such a happy smiling baby boy.
He is a joy.









You would never know Katy is 38 weeks pregnant.
We are anxiously awaiting the arrival of another baby boy.

Happy Summer



Friday, July 4, 2014

Proud to be an American

I love love love the 4th of July.
We have been partying since early this morning.




We love to go the cemetery to watch the fireworks.
I wonder what the fireworks look like from heaven.



Thanks to these guys!



On days like today I find myself reflecting on the important 
issues of faith, family, and freedom.
 These three issues are intertwined. 
One cannot be struck without impacting the others.
 I cannot adequately express the tremendous gratitude 
I feel to Heavenly Father for allowing me to
 live with my family in a time and place in which 
we have the opportunity to freely worship Him.
~Jeffrey R. Holland