I created this blog when my sweet little girl, Kristen, was diagnosed with cancer, for the third time. After fighting for almost 3 years Kristen was called home to that same God who gave her life. One of my favorite quotes comes from Neal A. Maxwell- "Those who "plow in hope" not only understand the law of the harvest but they also understand what growing seasons are all about. True, those with genuine hope may see their proximate circumstances shaken like a kaleidoscope at times, yet with the "Eye of faith" they still see divine design." Kristen blessed lives and continues to do so. Her light continues to shine. As for me, I continue to "plow in hope" knowing well that Kristen is mine for eternity. Families can be together forever!

Sunday, July 20, 2014

4 years

Dear Kristen,
It has been 4 years since we last held you in our arms.
Dad and I went to the cemetery first thing this morning.
It was a lovely summer morning just like the one 4 years ago.
Although it has been 4 years, our family continues to feel
your influence every single day.
The hole in my heart is still ever present.
However, I have the knowledge that someday you will again
fill that empty space in my heart.
We love and miss you more than we could ever say.
You are our sunshine forever.

One balloon for each year you have been gone.

As summer continues we wish you were here with us
sitting in the swing enjoying popsicles.
Today we will sit in the swing a little longer and enjoy a popsicle for you.

We choose hope over despair.

"Because of Him, even our Savior, Jesus Christ, those feelings of sorrow,
 loneliness, and despair will one day be swallowed up in a fullness of joy.
I testify that on that bright, glorious morning of the First Resurrection, your loved ones and mine will come forth from the grave as promised by the Lord Himself and we will have a fullness of joy. Because He lives, they and we shall live also."
~Elder Bowen

We returned to the cemetery this evening to let this balloon go.
The sky was beautiful.
I love you bigger


Amy Lucas said...

We are missing Kristen with you. Her picture sits in my bedroom, on a bookshelf, along with my boys.:) And I will be lighting Kristen's candle this evening. Sending love to you and your family Polly.

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Rochelle said...

Sorry I didn't read this until today. I did say prayers for your family yesterday! Love and hugs to you all. Anytime I see a butterfly your girl always comes to mind!

Michele Risner said...

Prayers for you. This is a beautiful post.

Groves said...

Kristen, I remember you. I remember your Mom. I remember.

Four years, but you are no less missed. You will always, always be missed. You are never going to be forgotten or replaced.

My heart aches with your family.