Yesterday in church, Brooke was sitting next to me. She was excited to see that I had
both a new box of crayons and a notebook in my bag. She quickly drew this picture for me,
she then leaned over and whispered, "It's Kristen"
I thought to myself, "I'm the mother of an angel."
And then another thought came into my mind, "The Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away."
A few quiet tears began to stream down my face
I felt peace.
Last week Cody had a space derby at Cub Scouts.
His rocket took first place!
Way to go Cody!
I know it's a bit early for Valentines stuff, but I couldn't help myself.
I had to purchase this sparkly pink heart for Kristen,
and the bright red one for my dad.
As I drove away from the cemetery, they were both sparking in the sun.
"They say that time in heaven is compared to 'the blink of an eye'.
Sometimes it helps me to think of my child running ahead of me through
a beautiful field of wildflowers and butterflies;
so happy and completely caught up in what she is doing
For some time I have been wondering what might become of Kristen's blog.
Kristen's blog was started as a journal to track her progress as
she fought leukemia. It was also a way to keep family and friends posted on the
latest happenings. Little did I know that it would also become a place to
meet friends and gather together to celebrate each others triumphs and gain
strength as others suffered tragedies. Kristen's blog is very dear to my heart.
It holds pictures, daily updates and many of my heartfelt feelings as
I have just experienced the most difficult 3 plus years of my life.
I've thought about starting another blog where I could continue to journal the
happenings of our lives.
But I just can't bring myself to leave this spot.
Kristen is still so much a part of us.
She continues to be in my every thought.
Her name is mentioned several times a day.
Just last night Ryan asked me if I would make his some creamed eggs.
They were Kristen's favorite. The whole time I was making them I
was wishing I could take a plate up to Kristen.
I still have a lot of healing to do.
I'm still trying to learn how to enjoy life again.
I'm still trying to figure out who I am without her next to me.
My heart has hurt for so long.
I am hoping this new year will bring
~some mending of my heart
I have decided rather than to start another family blog
I would like to stay right here and share more about our family
for I know family is the first place I find joy.
Because I print my blog into a book, don't be surprised to see a few
recipes and more about our day to day happenings.
I might post a simple saying or a simple picture that warms my heart.
I am hoping this will be a healing place for me and others.
I have said it before and I try to remember this every day,
I will not allow Kristen's death to put a black cloud over my head.
Although I feel lost and much heartache, I know there
is still reason to rejoice. She is still very much alive.
Her spirit is soaring and she is free of cancer.
I know she will be in my arms again.
I will continue to spread her light. I know her light can shine
through me as I continue to be remember the things that matter most in life.
~I will continue to raise awareness for children with Down syndrome.
~I will continue to fight for a cure for childhood cancer.
~I will continue to be a voice for the children who because of their
Down syndrome have been discarded into orphanages and institutions.
Thanks again to so many who have given me support over the past few years.
You have truly lit the path and shown me the way.
Now a little family cuteness...
Kali just turned 6 months old on Sunday.
I have already shown Kali many pictures of Kristen.
I take her in Kristen's room and show her all of Kristen's treasures.
She likes the snow domes, especially the ones that play music.
Kali is one blessed little girl as I am sure she has
This isn't about politics, at all.
This video has been floating around Facebook for the past few days.
I wanted to share it because this man truly loves his daughter.
She is the center of their universe.
I have often said the same about Kristen.
She is truly what makes my world go around.
Our children truly do make life better.