I created this blog when my sweet little girl, Kristen, was diagnosed with cancer, for the third time. After fighting for almost 3 years Kristen was called home to that same God who gave her life. I've contemplated on many occasions rather I should quit this blog or not. Each time I am inspired that I should not. One of my favorite quotes comes from Neal A. Maxwell- "Those who "plow in hope" not only understand the law of the harvest but they also understand what growing seasons are all about. True, those with genuine hope may see their proximate circumstances shaken like a kaleidoscope at times, yet with the "Eye of faith" they still see divine design." Kristen blessed lives and continues to do so. Her light continues to shine. As for me, I continue to "plow in hope" knowing well that Kristen is mine for eternity. Families can be together forever! This I know. Our family continues to live and to love and this is our story...

Saturday, September 29, 2012

another birthday and curesearch walk

One thing we are never short on is Birthdays.
Yesterday was the birthday of my oldest son. 
Rick has always been a great blessing to our family.
He works harder than anyone I know.
Currently he is building a home for his family.
He is working 16 hours a day. Hopefully they will be able to move in 
before the snow flies. 
I thought I would start with a few pictures of him when he was little.
(He's gonna love me for this)

Rick and his grandpa at 6 months old

His first Birthday


His 29th Birthday Party with his 2 girls

Today we had the opportunity to participate in the Curesearch walk.
CureSearch for Children's Cancer is a national non-profit foundation whose mission is to fund and support children's cancer
 research and provide information
and resources to all those affected by children's cancer.
Bandannas were passed to all of the participants.
Lime green represented cancer survivors,
kelly green was for those currently under treatment
and mint green were for those who were walking in
memory of a child.
I was complaining a bit when I picked up my bandanna,
I mentioned that I wish I could have a lime green one.
The lady politely said that I could have any color I wanted.
I picked up the mint green one and said,
"This is who I am, the mother of a child who did not survive
childhood cancer." 


There was a balloon release for the children who were being honored.
One of those white balloon represents my sweet girl.

Sometimes late at night Rich and I go for a ride.
It seems we always end up here.
I usually don't tell him that I had already been here today.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

a good read and a good reminder

Here is a story that appeared in our local paper today about the sweet girl whose funeral I attended on Monday.

click on the doctors name to go to the story.

Joseph Cramer, M.D.: A child with special needs teaches a special love

Monday, September 24, 2012

"In the night of death, hope sees a star, 
and listening love can 
hear the rustle of a wing."
~R. Ingersoll

Today I attended yet another funeral. 
Today, on what would have been her 17th Birthday,
the life story of a sweet little girl was told.
This girl was born with Down syndrome and was 
truly a gift to her family.
She, like so many of our children, also 
fought leukemia. She also had a bone marrow transplant.
She was doing so well. It had been over 2 years since her transplant
when she relapsed. 
Her and Kristen shared many similarities.
She was truly an angel to many.
Her smile reflected true radiance wherever she went.
She loved her family and they loved and adored her.
She loved life.
Love your children and your family.
Spend time making memories that will last forever. 
Life is precious and can change so quickly.
Live so you have no regrets.

As heaven received another angel this past week,
I'd like to share a picture of my angel...


Chili's is proud to support the lifesaving work of St. Jude Children's Research Hospital® — finding cures and saving children with pediatric cancer and other deadly diseases. Our annual Create-A-Pepper campaign invites guests to design a custom pepper and make an individual donation to our friends at St. Jude.
As we work towards our 10-year goal of $50 million in donations to St. Jude, we're reminded of the generous guests like you who make that goal possible. To show our appreciation we're donating 100% of our net profits on September 24 to St. Jude. On The Big Day, all you have to do to help is come into Chili's for a meal. It's our way of saying thanks and supporting the brave kids of St. Jude.

Thursday, September 20, 2012

birthday, grandparent day & peg people

Life is crazy busy. I keep asking myself if I am crazy busy doing things that matter.
I often have to stop and ask myself if I am on a path that leads toward a
life of meaning, gladness and peace. 
Time spent with family is never wasted. Time spent celebrating a birthday
is never wasted. Time spent with my grandchildren in never wasted. 
Time spent doing good for others is never wasted.

Today we celebrated the birthday of my oldest daughters husband, Charlie.
He often jokes with me and asks me when he is going "to make" the blog.
So today just for your birthday, 
Charlie, You made the blog!
Thanks Charlie for always taking care of Kate and the children.
I had fun trying to take a few pictures of their family the other night. 
We quickly lost sunlight so I think we will try again, but for now,
these pictures will do.

Today was Grandparent Day for the 2nd graders.
Brooke was so excited for me to come and have lunch with her.
She asked if I could put our picture on my blog I told her I don't put pictures of myself on
my blog. She said, "Please"
So here it is just for Brooke. 
Good thing it was a little blurry.

And now on to the peg people...
Kim has been crafting lately. She has been making items to donate to 
The Festival of Trees. 
They are fabulous! I will post more later.
I told Kim she better hurry and finish before her baby arrives.
I have a feeling all crafting will come to a sudden halt.

Wednesday, September 19, 2012

some craftiness

 Do you know what a feltie is?
I didn't think so.
I'll do my best to describe a feltie.
A feltie is a little something made out of felt.
There are many patterns such as cartoon characters and Christmas designs.
These little items are made, filled with candy, and then sold at 
Last year over 20,000 were made and donated.
All of the money raised goes to Primary Children's Medical Center.
Last year I was on a committee and we made the angels.
This year I have my own committee and we are responsible to make 150 crowns.
My daughters and I have just completed 90 crowns and our
other committee members are working on theirs. 
I just found out that a major hotel chain in Park City has ordered 1000 snowmen.
They are going to hang these on their guests rooms on Christmas Eve. 
I volunteered to make at least 100 more snowmen. 
I know, I think I'm crazy.
By the way, if you live in the area and would like to volunteer a few hours during the week
of the festival, we need help in the Small Fry shop selling felties and other children's items.
Let me know if you're interested. 
It really is for a good cause and besides it's a BLAST!

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

fall is in the air

Finally, I can open the windows and feel a slight crispness, which is better than heat bellowing in. 
I love summer, but I also love fall. One of my favorite parts about fall is when I finish canning. 
I love to put up fresh fruit and vegetables, but I love it more when I am finished.
 I wish I could say I was finished but I am still looking for more peaches.
 Rich went out to the hives and harvested some of the honey. 
 It is always fun to watch. This batch of honey is dark and rich in color. 

September also brings Cody's birthday.
 It is hard to imagine that I have a 9 year old grandson. 
Happy Birthday Cody!

This cookie totally kicks Mrs. Fields trash,
 and it is much less expensive.
I'll have to post the recipe. 

With the coming of Fall, we are also getting 
closer to meeting grandchild #8.
Kim only has 4 weeks until her baby girl makes her appearance.
Her in-laws had a shower for her this past weekend.
You gotta love this
motorcycle made out of diapers and other baby stuff.

I have also been busy spreading Kristen's light.
One of our friends, who had a bone marrow transplant just after Kristen,
relapsed this past week. It breaks my heart.
She is a fighter and will continue to fight.
I was able to make her a build a bear and have it delivered to her.
I remember how excited Kristen was to receive gifts in the hospital.
I have also made a few more activity bags for children who are fighting cancer.
I wish I could do more, but for now I hope I can at least bring a smile to the face of a child.