I created this blog when my sweet little girl, Kristen, was diagnosed with cancer, for the third time. After fighting for almost 3 years Kristen was called home to that same God who gave her life. I've contemplated on many occasions rather I should quit this blog or not. Each time I am inspired that I should not. One of my favorite quotes comes from Neal A. Maxwell- "Those who "plow in hope" not only understand the law of the harvest but they also understand what growing seasons are all about. True, those with genuine hope may see their proximate circumstances shaken like a kaleidoscope at times, yet with the "Eye of faith" they still see divine design." Kristen blessed lives and continues to do so. Her light continues to shine. As for me, I continue to "plow in hope" knowing well that Kristen is mine for eternity. Families can be together forever! This I know. Our family continues to live and to love and this is our story...

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

orphan spotlight and rain boots

Meet Ellison
Born in July 2010

Look at that flyaway hair!  What a cutie!

He is described as having a calm nature.
Ellison has Down syndrome, and is waiting for his family.
for more info please visit

I was cleaning Kristen's room the other day. Claire came up to visit me.
She was trying on Kristen's slippers and then I turned around and saw this...

Kristen Loved her rain boots. I was a little sad when I noticed
how dusty they were.  After Claire was finished, I dusted them
off and put them neatly back into her closet. 
The next time it rains,  (in honor of Kristen, of course)
I think we should all put on our rain boots
and run through the rain.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

happy father's day

Happy Father's Day to the dad's in my life.

First off, my dad,

and then there is his dad,

and then the dad to my children,

and then his dad.

Happy Father's Day
Thanks for being such great examples in my life.
Some of you we will be celebrating with today,
and others we will be remembering.
I would have to think that Father's Day
would be a pretty big deal in Heaven.

Friday, June 8, 2012


Grief is laughing with your children and wishing for the absent one to make the circle

Grief is crying in your car at stoplights.

Grief some days makes you brutally honest; other days, grief muzzles you.

Grief reconstructs your heart.

Grief is sadness, hope, smiles and tears rolled tightly like a snowball.

Grief makes you search past the stars and the moon for Heaven.

Grief strips you of everything you were pretending to be.

Grief gives you new priorities.

Grief opens hidden treasures from deep with in your soul.

Grief allows you to empathize more deeply with others who ache.

Grief makes you unapologetically bold.

Grief is a daily companion, best dealt with by admitting you do walk with it, 

even after all these years.

Grief is the price of love.


Here's the yellow butterfly that was following me around the yard yesterday.

In honor of Kim's birthday yesterday... a little Kristen and Kim cuteness 

The following pictures were taken after midnight almost exactly 2 years ago.
Kristen was laughing so hard she could hardly breathe.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

graduation, dance recital & birthdays

I think I deserve a prize.
My youngest of 6, Ryan, graduated from high school today.
I'm not sure who was more excited, me or him.
It was a fun filled day. He was one of 775 graduating from Alta today.
Ryan is a free spirit, just ask him.
 I'll ask him where he is going and his reply is always the same, 
"Mom, I'm a free spirit."
He then smiles and walks out the door. 
Ryan  has a very kind heart.
Today I couldn't have been more proud.
Congratulations Ryan

Little Miss Sara just performed in her Spring dance recital.
Of course she was the best little dancer in her entire class!

Yesterday we celebrated the birthday's of these two...
Jordan and Ellie
They were born just hours apart on the same day 
5 years ago.

Here they are just a week after they were born

Here they are on the day of their blessing, 
just a month or two later,
precious, I know.

We started the day with a party at Ellie's house...

followed by a party at Jordan's house.

We have had a busy few day filled with
fun and family!

Friday, June 1, 2012

busy busy busy

I thought I would start off with an orphan spotlight.

Meet Willow

Isn't she precious!
Willow was born in March of 2009
Willow is a beautiful, bright girl. She has  Down syndrome and a strong character and tries to do everything in her own way.  
Are you her Mommy?
Please visit Reece's Rainbow for more info.

Next, the Cox family from Utah, was spotlighted on our local news. Last year they adopted Mia. They found her picture on Reece's Rainbow. It is a fabulous story! You can view it by clicking  here.
This is Mia before her family found her

 and this is Mia after...

Life has been busy around here. It seems as the warm weather arrives so does more and more activities. I am preparing for my 6th and final child to graduate from high school. Ryan will graduate on Tuesday and I couldn't be more excited. Katy has been super busy as the school year comes to an end. She has been the co-president in the PTA where her children go to school. I have had the kids a little more these past 2 weeks. We are always looking for something fun to do. This week we worked on some bird feeders. We really made a big mess but it was worth it as we love to sit outside and watch the birds come into our yard. 

Claire has a new smile for the camera.

These past few months have been difficult. I have heard people say that the second year of losing someone is actually worse than the first year.
 I think they both are just as terrible. 
However, Because of Kristen, I have learned

that how you spend your time is important, 

that every day is truly a miracle 

and that time spent with your family or 

helping others in NEVER wasted.

I have often thought about Kristen's death and I have decided that rather than letting it define me, I will be working on letting it refine me. I think that would be a great gift to her. I am continually looking for joy. As I do, I usually find it in the simplest of places; the smile of a child, the yellow butterfly that seems to follow me wherever I go, the song of a bird, or a sunset.
Hope it's a great weekend for everyone.
How about we leave the ordinary behind and make today and every day extraordinary!

PS. The snowcone machine is up and running.