Today marks 640 days since I last held my girl in my arms.
21 months ago we said goodbye to our little angel.
During those months I have spent a lot of time reading and learning.
Last night I started reading a new book.
The book is about a man who lost his wife.
In the first chapter he says,
"There has been a continent shift in my life that will be understood
by many who have been where I am. Grief is love's shadow.
It is cast over me now by the loss of Laurie, but it need not block the sunlight.
That light is always shining above the clouds somewhere,
and though I cannot currently feel it's rays,
I assume she can, and their is comfort in that."
~S. M. Wilcox
I too find comfort in knowing that Kristen can see and feel those
beautiful rays of sunshine.
Many would believe that time would heal or fill Kristen's absence,
but it does not. The only thing that will fill Kristen's absence
is Kristen. I will continue to endure each and every day. I'll continue
to keep her light front and center until the day that I will
indeed hold her in my arms again.
Last year we started making parent bags for the parents of children who
are fighting cancer. I know first hand how much a bag such as this would
be appreciated. The past few months I have been working on Mommy bags.
These are simple book bags made with Mom in mind.
As I have spent the last several weeks volunteering at
the Huntsman Cancer Institute I have noticed that these bags
would also be appreciated by many of the cancer patients there.
Today, in honor of Kristen I have chosen to spend some time making and delivering
these bags. If you know anyone who could use a bag, please e-mail me
and I will get one sent out as soon as possible.