Ramblings & Orphan spotlight day 4

Where does the time go.  The weeks seem to fly by, by somehow the days 

seem to drag. I feel like I am definitely stuck somewhere.  

It seems I have been wondering what direction it is that I need to 

be going for quite some time now.

I thought I had my life planned. I always planned to have Kristen by my side.

We would go forward, her and I, doing what was important. 

It feel like with the loss of Kristen, I have lost my future.

I feel like I am back at square one wondering which direction to go.

There are days where chaos and uncertainty seem to follow me wherever I go,

and other days I don't feel anything at all.

I hate both of those.

I hate the numbness and the uncertainty.

I don't want to find a new normal.

I liked my life the way it was before.

One of the hardest things for me is trying to find joy and purpose in life.

I guess there is one good thing,

at least I am trying.

Can you believe I would even sit here for a minute and complain about

my own plight when there are children, many children who are 

suffering around the world. Sorry for complaining. 

Maybe I can't go and rescue one, but I can continue to speak for them.

Tonight I bring you...

Trina

She was born in May 2002

Trina is a beautiful 10 year old girl in need of her forever family. 

 She is active and healthy, but does have some strabismus. 

 Correcting her vision would be such a blessing for her.

Are you  her mommy?