written by Emily Perl Kingsley.
I get the whole part about planning for something and then getting something completely different than you thought you were going to get, like planning a trip to Italy and finding yourself in Holland.
However I don't agree with this...
~But everyone you know is busy coming and going from
And for the rest of your life, you will say
"Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.
The pain of finding out that my new baby had Down syndrome did go away. Yes it is true, It was a surprise and I was a little scared. OK, a lot scared. However, I had this beautiful little baby girl to hold in my arms. I found comfort in my family and friends who supported me greatly. I also found comfort in the baby I held in my arms. I soon found out that this was all going to be alright. I became caught up in the things I needed to learn. I knew nothing about Down syndrome and the more I learned the more I knew I could do this. Besides, I had fallen in love with my little girl. It might take an hour, a week, 2 weeks, or longer but the pain does go away. You'll soon find yourself in a whole new world. It might be a different world than you planned, but you'll see, it's a beautiful world. Kristen definitely took me to Holland, but she didn't stop there. We pretty much covered the world, together.
This purple rose bush is a gift from a neighbor. She brought the plant over in the spring, with tears in her eyes she said, "It's called Angel Face."
She said she had been looking for this for a year, ever since Kristen passed away. She finally found one.
It is beautiful and it's full of blooms. Every time I walk past it I stop and smile and think of my little angel face smiling down on all of us.