Our precious friend, Jessenia, passed away just a few short days after she was given 3 to 4 months lo live. The infection in her lungs and the leukemia which was raging through her was just too much for her fragile little body. As her mother and I embraced at her viewing last night, it was difficult to understand and make any sense of her lifeless body lying next to us in her beautiful pink casket.
However, I am thankful that in the face of apparent tragedy, I can put my trust in God, knowing that my view is limited; I know that His purpose will not fail. With all the troubles that life offers us also comes tremendous privileges to grow in knowledge, wisdom, faith and works. I know that there is wisdom in trials that we might rise above them. We are given responsibilities that we might achieve, work to harden our muscles, sickness to learn patience, and sorrow to strengthen our souls.
As much as I hate cancer, I would be a fool to think that there has not been some lessons learned throughout this experience.
Through these trials my faith and patience have been strengthened. All that we suffer and all that we endure can build our character, purify our hearts, expands our souls, and make us more tender and charitable. I see these qualities in the children on the fourth floor, in Jessenia’s mother, Vicky and other parents that walk the halls. I, myself am still working on developing some of these traits.
We are off to the hospital today as Kristen is due for a spinal tap. She will receive chemo in her spinal fluid. She really hates these. They are usually followed by headaches and nausea.
We have some fun planned for Easter so hopefully she will recover quickly. I told my grandkids we would be hunting for eggs in the snow with one advantage, the bright colored eggs will be easy to spot against the white snow. After seeing what is going on in the New England area
I am not going to complain not even a little.