Yesterday Kristen finished up 3 days of high dose, intense chemotherapy. Now we wait for a couple of days and do it all over again. There was talk that we could go home for a couple of days but since Kristen has had a fever and the fact that she already has no white count we are staying for the duration. By the looks of things we might bust out of here 2 weeks before Christmas. We will be home for about 2 weeks then come back and start round 2. It already feels like we have been here for months, in fact it feels like we never left. As I walk the halls of our unit I run into some of our previous nurses, they stop dead in their tracks and just says, "What are you doing here?" Everyone has been very kind and feels terrible that Kristen is back. It is kind of strange here in the cancer unit. The doors to the rooms remain shut, and the blinds are pulled. Behind each door is a warrior fighting a battle. A battle no child should ever have to fight, but fight they do. We as parents of these special children walk the halls with somber faces trying to make sense out of all of this. But it doesn't make sense. It's not fair. We are in the mist of a horrible storm that is raging within our hearts. We are looking for a sign that there might be better days ahead. A clearing in the storm. That clearing comes in the form of hope. For me hope is an abiding trust that the Lord will fulfull His promises to me. It is believing and expecting that something will occur. When you have hope you work through trials and difficutlies with the confidence and assurance that
all things will work together for your good.
Hope helps conquer discouragement.
Each day I continue to Hope for Another Miracle.
Thanks to all of you that have sent Kristen a card or note. She loves opening the cards. She gets bored sitting her day after day and the cards give her something to look forward to.
Keep them coming!
Special thanks to her sweet grandma who has put a card in the mail almost every day!
Julie-She especially loved the card you sent that plays music.
She keeps opening and shutting it.
The picture is of Kristen and her BFF, Audrey. She came to visit Kristen and definately cheered her up.