I created this blog when my sweet little girl, Kristen, was diagnosed with cancer, for the third time. After fighting for almost 3 years Kristen was called home to that same God who gave her life. One of my favorite quotes comes from Neal A. Maxwell- "Those who "plow in hope" not only understand the law of the harvest but they also understand what growing seasons are all about. True, those with genuine hope may see their proximate circumstances shaken like a kaleidoscope at times, yet with the "Eye of faith" they still see divine design." Kristen blessed lives and continues to do so. Her light continues to shine. As for me, I continue to "plow in hope" knowing well that Kristen is mine for eternity. Families can be together forever!

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Hope


Yesterday Kristen finished up 3 days of high dose, intense chemotherapy.  Now we wait for a couple of days and do it all over again.  There was talk that we could go home for a couple of days but since Kristen has had a fever and the fact that she already has no white count we are staying for the duration.  By the looks of things we might bust out of here 2 weeks before Christmas.  We will  be home for about 2 weeks then come back and start round 2.  It already feels like we have been here for months, in fact it feels like we never left.  As I walk the halls of our unit I run into some of our previous nurses, they stop dead in their tracks and just says, "What are you doing here?" Everyone has been very kind and feels terrible that Kristen is back. It is kind of strange here in the cancer unit.  The doors to the rooms remain shut, and the blinds are pulled.  Behind each door is a warrior fighting a battle.  A battle no child should ever have to fight, but fight they do. We as parents of these special children walk the halls with somber faces trying to make sense out of all of this.  But it doesn't make sense. It's not fair.  We are in the mist of a horrible storm that is raging within our hearts. We are looking for a sign that there might be better days ahead.  A clearing in the storm.  That clearing comes in the form of hope. For me hope is an abiding trust that the Lord will fulfull His promises to me. It is believing and expecting that something will occur. When you have hope you work through trials and difficutlies with the confidence and assurance that
all things will work together for your good.
Hope helps conquer discouragement.
Each day I continue to Hope for Another Miracle.

Thanks to all of you that have sent Kristen a card or note.  She loves opening the cards.  She gets bored sitting her day after day and the cards give her something to look forward to.
Keep them coming! 
Special thanks to her sweet grandma who has put a card in the mail almost every day!
Julie-She especially loved the card you sent that plays music. 
She keeps opening and shutting it.
The picture is of Kristen and her BFF, Audrey.  She came to visit Kristen and definately cheered her up.

7 comments:

Tina said...

Just to let you know the prayers continue coming Kristin's way, keep the hope strong, very strong, it brings with it an incredible amount of positive energy, and if you believe, it will happen. I can't even start to understand how hard it must be for you and your family right now, and for sweet kristin but I continue to believe in miracles, and if we believe, it will happen.

Heather said...

Thinking of you daily.Praying for you daily.Knowing all too well that look of the floor.Only if you have been there,even if it is in a different hospital,do you see with your minds eye,those closed doors.I remember writing nearly the exact same thing about the warriors behind the doors.Different children,different stories but all joined in a common goal .. life and cure.

Love to you all.love to your warrior girl.This was my quote on this day last year:"Hope is faith holding it's hand out in the dark"~George Iles

jag said...

Thinking of your little warrior. So sorry she has to endure so much. Praying...

ABandCsMom said...

Thinking of you every day. I can vividly recall the "floor", ours was #7. Depressing. Sad. Just a terrible place, but also in a sort of bitter sweet way, it's a place of Hope. A place that see's miracles every day. Hold on to that thought. Miracles do happen. Every single day. We continue to pray for Kriste as well as the rest of your family.

stephanie said...

We are all hanging on to hope for sweet Kristen! there is an army fighting with Kristen, an army from all over the world!
Don't ever think for one moment you are ever alone, for at every moment someone is praying for Kristen! That's the beauty of us all being in different time zones.
Sending prayers! And hugs!

Lacey said...

Dropping some stuff in the mail today. I really hope you can be home for Christmas. Always thinking of you.

Nef Family said...

Thank you so much for your poem. You amaze me that during such a hard time, you can help somebody else out. For months I've tried to put into words what it's like to be a mom of a child with cancer. Your poem said it all! Thank you. Kristen continues to be in our thoughts and prayers. Amanda asks me how her "little friend" is doing. I'll sneak you in some tylenol next time I'm at primary's!!!