For the past few days I have been hoping that Wednesday would never get here. and now it is staring me in the face. I have been busy trying to get things done. I went shopping and bought Kristen new pajamas a robe and some really cute froggy slippers. Earlier today I told Kristen the news...that she was very sick AGAIN and that we needed to go to the hospital to get some medicine. I told her that we were going to sleep there and the first thing she said was a great BIG "I don't want to!" She then continued to tell me that she did not want a central line. I showed her the bruise on her arm and said that if we had the central line she wouldn't have to get poked and have an IV. She was mad at me for the rest of the day. Whenever someone would walk into the room she would say, "I'm mad at mom, she's mean." Finally after several hours she warmed up and I think she likes me again...until Wednesday when I begin to pack our suitcases.
The Festival of Trees is an event that is held here in Salt Lake City to raise money for Primary Children's Hospital. Anyone can donate a decorated tree. Several months ago my daughter, Kamie, decided she was going to donate a tree to honor Kristen. She had to register her tree and choose a name. She chose to name her tree "Another Miracle." She chose this name because Kristen was once again cancer free after battling cancer her third time. Friday when we got the confirmation that Kristen had indeed relapsed Kamie decided to rename Kristen's tree. She said she was going to add "Hoping for" to the name. The tree will now be called
"Hoping for Another Miracle"
That is just we are doing. Hoping for another miracle. I know that we once again have an insurmountable obstacle in front of us. The road is dark and it is long. However, we have been blessed with this bright beautiful light. Her name is Kristen and I know she will once again light the way for us. It is her magical light that gives us hope.