I created this blog when my sweet little girl, Kristen, was diagnosed with cancer, for the third time. After fighting for almost 3 years Kristen was called home to that same God who gave her life. I've contemplated on many occasions rather I should quit this blog or not. Each time I am inspired that I should not. One of my favorite quotes comes from Neal A. Maxwell- "Those who "plow in hope" not only understand the law of the harvest but they also understand what growing seasons are all about. True, those with genuine hope may see their proximate circumstances shaken like a kaleidoscope at times, yet with the "Eye of faith" they still see divine design." Kristen blessed lives and continues to do so. Her light continues to shine. As for me, I continue to "plow in hope" knowing well that Kristen is mine for eternity. Families can be together forever! This I know. Our family continues to live and to love and this is our story...

Thursday, June 25, 2009

A Walk in the Park

Finally it stopped raining! I decided Kristen needed to get out more...what could be better than a walk in the park? I was thinking she needed some of the great vitamin D the sun had to offer so off we went. At first she wasn't too keen on the idea but with some prodding from her sisters she finally agreed. Once she got there she pretty much laughed the entire time. She doesn't know it, but I think we will do this almost every day or at least every other. So far summer has been busy. Ryan is playing baseball for Alta so it seems we spend at least 3 nights a week at the ball park. It is nice to be able to go and watch him play. I missed the entire football season last fall as Kristen and I spent our time in the hospital. Next week Richard turns 50! I have been trying to come up with a fun Birthday surprise or party or something. It is surprising how fast life comes flying back at you. I so wanted normalcy back in my life and now that it is here staring me in the face it can be a little scary. I never want to get caught in the business of daily life that I forget how precious life is and how quick it can change. Every where you look people are rushing here and there and giving little thought or notice to the many needs there are in the world, in their own city, their own neighborhoods and even in their own families. I am blessed to have sweet Kristen in my life. She keeps us all grounded and helps us realize what is important in life. Although she is feeling better she struggles to get her strength back. She tires easily if I get her out too much. Hopefully her strength will continue to increase with each day.

I can tell you one thing...Kristen is happy!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

do I dare say it...

I think Kristen is feeling better! She has been teasing me...that is a sure sign. 3 of my daughters are training for a marathon so today they ran from my house to my mom's house. It is probably about 8 miles, So I loaded up the kids and Kristen and we drove over to pick them up. It was good to get Kristen out of the house for a couple on hours today. Her favorite place to be in the entire world is HOME! Sometimes she fights me a little when I need to go somewhere, but today she was happy to load up with the kiddies and drive to grandmas.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Blessed for 23 Years...

"I have been blessed for 23 years to have this sweet child with Down Syndrome. I am far from perfect and needed her in my life to teach me things I could never have learned without her."

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Off to the Clinic...

I have been waiting for this clinic visit for about a month. I've become obsessive wanting to know what her blood counts are. Her last clinic visit I expected her counts to be higher than they were so this time I expected to be blown out of the water, but no...still a little low. The doctors are perfectly fine with her numbers, it is just me being obsessive. To those who understand the whole number game...Platelets were 111 and ANC just barely above 1000. I guess I am expecting too much. I just want NORMAL. Today Dr. Fluchel (one of our favorites!) said that Kristen's chemo was very intense and with some patients it can take a year before they are back to "life before cancer." Kristen had to have a finger poke for the blood test and she was truly amazing! She also had to have a shot...again she was amazing! Just a little "Owie" came from her and then she gathered up her purse and said, 'Let's go!"
Once again thanks to my family and friends who continue to check on us.
And a little prayer for
Kristen and all her
Friends who are truly angels inspiring us all.

Kristen and Kamie at the clinic

Last Saturday Kristen sat on the swing at her grandma and grandpa's house
while I mowed their lawn

Kim turned 19 on Sunday. Happy Birthday!

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Happy Birthday to the Kiddies!

Two year ago today our family was blessed with not one but two babies. My oldest daughter and my oldest son and his wife both had a baby on the same day. Jordan was such a gentleman and let Ellie arrive first. 2 hours after Ellie arrived
Jordan made his appearance.
It was such a fun day!
Today we celebrated their 2nd Birthday. We went to Katy's house and had a Birthday Bash. Katy asked me to make some Elmo and Cookie Monster cupcakes...they turned out pretty cute. Kristen was feeling good today which was definitely a plus!

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Flyover and Shopping...

This week is Air Force Week in Salt Lake City. Yesterday there were a couple of flyovers that were to say the least... LOUD. Kristen was upstairs and every time they would fly over she would yell down the stairs,
"Are you OK?"

This week is a big birthday for 2 of my grandkids, Jordan and Ellie were both born on the same day and they will be 2. Kamie and I took Kristen to Red Balloon to find gifts. Kristen was in a good mood and had fun shopping. We then stopped at the grocery store and we were standing in line and she wasn't looking so good. I asked her if she was OK and she said she wanted to wait in the car. I think I may have over did it just a little.

We are all enjoying the nice weather. Kristen seems to be taking small tiny baby steps at getting her strength back but I can say that she is definately going forward!