Monday, September 15, 2014

so this just happened...

I stopped by the cemetery.
The sun was setting and dusk was settling in.
Sometimes there are strange people close by so I chose to sit in my car.
I rolled the window down and did what I always do when I
visit Kristen's grave. I start singing
"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine..."
Just as I finished the song the red and silver windmill that I had
previously placed on Kristen's grave started spinning.
No big deal, right? Well maybe not if the the wind had been blowing,
but it wasn't. I even checked the nearby flag and it stood still.
The leaves on the trees were also still.
 Everything was still except that little windmill. 

This little girl of mine still knows how to warm my heart.

Sunday, September 7, 2014

baby blessing and room with a view

Today at church the newest baby boy in our family was blessed.
In our religion we believe that every member of the church of Christ
having children is to bring them unto the elders before the church, 
who are to lay their hands upon them in the name of Jesus Christ,
 and bless them in his name.

He is such a sweet little guy.
We love him.

He had a little sharp fingernail and scratched himself, poor thing.
We are loving those cheeks and those chubby little rolls on his legs.

After church we all gathered for food and fun.

 This boy finally got the brother he's been hoping for.

Room with a view...

My cute mom had been feeling sick for the past few days.
I took her into the doctors office this past Thursday.
He couldn't find anything that would cause the symptoms she'd been having.
Saturday morning I stopped in to check on her and she was still feeling dizzy.
I think we both knew that she needed to be seen again.
I took her to the ER and we discovered that she had had a stroke.
One of the main arteries leading to  her brain still appeared to be narrowing and
possibly clogged. We were transferred by ambulance to another hospital.
She does have a room with a view, which all of the kids have loved .

These little ones stood beside her bed and sang and danced.

I stopped at the cemetery just as night was setting in.
The geese were everywhere.
It was peaceful.

Kristen taught me that you truly never know what tomorrow will bring.
Tell those you love that you love them, better yet, show them.
Be happy today.

Thursday, August 28, 2014

Kristen's Light

Recently I had the opportunity to deliver gifts to three
little boys who are staying in the hospital.
One is fighting leukemia and the other was born 
with gastroschisis and the other needed open heart surgery
just days after he was born.
I love that I can keep Kristen's light burning.
I will never forget how excited she was when a Build-a-Bear
was delivered to her while she was in the hospital.
 I delivered bears for the patients and book bags
for their mothers. 

I continue to miss Kristen so very much. 
It would be pretty easy for me to crawl into bed and 
never get out. Happiness and joy are things I have had to
look for. I find it by spending time with my family and
serving others. 

"It is better to light a candle than
 to curse the darkness."
~Eleanor Roosevelt

Kristen's light will forever shine

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

catching up

Life has been crazy busy.
Most of my busyness involves family so I guess its okay.
We have been celebrating birthdays, going on camp-outs and loving summer.

This little lovely turned 3.

and this little lovely turned 4

Little cousins meeting for the first time

baby boy at 4 days old

Grandpa turned 82

 A quick thought to end the night

Friday, August 15, 2014

fairies and frogs

Summer seems to be quickly coming to and end.
In about 10 days the children will be returning to school. 
We love summer.
With the help of the kids we made a fairy garden.
By now it's almost completely overgrown.
You know what they say about fairies...
A rustle in the wind tells you a fairy is near!
We believe in fairies and their glistening fairy dust.

We even caught a frog!
This girl is the only one who dared to pick it up.

Another sign summers end is near...

The other morning I was feeling overwhelmed
with a lot of things. I wondered what the
next few months would bring. 
I even had a little anxiety set in.
I stepped outside and just at that very moment
a family of quail flew in and landed in the bushes
in front of me. 
A orange butterfly soon joined them and twirled about.
I suddenly felt calm and a feeling of peace set in.
I knew everything would be alright.

Sunday, July 20, 2014

4 years

Dear Kristen,
It has been 4 years since we last held you in our arms.
Dad and I went to the cemetery first thing this morning.
It was a lovely summer morning just like the one 4 years ago.
Although it has been 4 years, our family continues to feel
your influence every single day.
The hole in my heart is still ever present.
However, I have the knowledge that someday you will again
fill that empty space in my heart.
We love and miss you more than we could ever say.
You are our sunshine forever.

One balloon for each year you have been gone.

As summer continues we wish you were here with us
sitting in the swing enjoying popsicles.
Today we will sit in the swing a little longer and enjoy a popsicle for you.

We choose hope over despair.

"Because of Him, even our Savior, Jesus Christ, those feelings of sorrow,
 loneliness, and despair will one day be swallowed up in a fullness of joy.
I testify that on that bright, glorious morning of the First Resurrection, your loved ones and mine will come forth from the grave as promised by the Lord Himself and we will have a fullness of joy. Because He lives, they and we shall live also."
~Elder Bowen

We returned to the cemetery this evening to let this balloon go.
The sky was beautiful.
I love you bigger